when you hit the wall. what it means and how to make it through
December 22, 2014
Evelyn was tired. She’d been trying and trying to make a go of it, to change how she felt during the day, to be stronger, more confident, and better able to handle the challenges of her work.
Each morning she got up before dawn. She made a cup of coffee. She drank it on the way to boot camp. There, she charged through a routine that made her sweat from head to toe, pushed herself to go further and faster–be stronger. She loved how she felt afterwards, the high of having achieved it all, the pulse in her muscles and in her breath. She showered, did her hair. Put on her make up. Zipped up her boots.
And by the time she’d pulled into the parking lot of her office, she’d nearly stopped breathing. The tension rose up. Her chest got tight, her pulse started to pound. She felt like she couldn’t swallow.
What it all Means
Evelyn’s story isn’t uncommon. I hear this from so many people I talk to. It’s similar to my own. And beneath it all is a common thread: something else is calling. There’s a knowing that hasn’t yet been acknowledged; that there’s somewhere else we’re meant to be.
The body doesn’t lie. It doesn’t know how.
Anxiety. Tension. The feeling that we’re stuck. Sometimes, feeling like we’re drowning.
These are symptoms, all of them. Symptoms of an ignored essential self, a life that doesn’t reflect who we are, choices that don’t enable us to do what we’re here to do.
What Happened When Evelyn Quit Her Job
When Evelyn quit her job, she struggled. She got scared. She felt the fear of not having enough money come in and take her into doubt. She kept going. She kept offering her services as an entrepreneur. Her business grew.
She’s now making six figures. She still does boot camp. But in the mornings, after she’s done her hair and makeup, and zipped up her boots, she stays in the high of it all–takes that into her day, stronger, more confident, and better able to handle challenges.
So often, when we hit the wall it means we’re meant to be another way. Sometimes that other way means changing what we do with our time, and how we spend most of it–including what we do for work. Other times, it means changing the beliefs we’re carrying that keep us from doing more than just handling our day, that keep us from co-creating our right life. Very often, when we hit the wall it means we need to do both.
When you’re out in the ocean and wave comes up behind you, you can try to fight it. Or you can jump. And be carried. The wave of overwhelm isn’t actually a wall; it’s a wave that’s arrived to carry you to shore. And it will, if you let it.
If you feel like you’re up against a wall, if you feel like you’ve been trying to make things different and nothing is changing, try changing this: instead of seeing a wall, see a wave. The overwhelm is there to get you to pay attention, to get you to let go. So you can be carried to shore.