You know those moments when you feel like you’re working really hard and nothing’s happening? Those moments where the thing–you know, the thing you’ve been calling for, and has been calling you–just isn’t happening? And you keep hearing that you just gotta trust the universe, trust that it will all turn out, that the money will come.
You say to yourself: “I’ve been trusting. I’ve been trying to be patient, and letting go of the outcome, while at the same time holding my vision…”
Our strongest, most powerful connection to all of life, all the stars, all the cosmos, all that is around us and can guide us, is within us. So often, when we get caught up in thinking “I need to trust the universe,” we get caught up in thinking that some external force is going to swoop in and save us. In other words: we go straight to dependent, weak and disempowered. This kind of trusting the universe is like being Rapunzel, stuck in a tower with all that long hair, waiting for the prince to come and save her–when all along she coulda just tied the ends of her hair to the window frame and climbed down herself.
Yup, she would’ve had to lop off her hair once she got down there, because the ends would still be tied to the window frame. But she’d be outta there.
The thing is, in my experience, when we’re caught up in “I just gotta trust the universe” and hoping to be saved, we’re hanging onto more than a bunch of hair. We’re hanging onto ways we can continue to hide, ways we can avoid stepping up. Beliefs about our inabilities, and fears about what it might mean if we own our infinite capacity to create.
I hung on for dear life to beliefs about my inability to earn good money, until the day I explored all that and realized that one of the main reasons I was hanging onto that was because I was afraid of what I might need to take responsibility for if I owned my infinite capacity to create money. I’d have to take responsibility for my finances, for my future, for every time I said “I can’t afford that.” No more excuses. No more ducking and hiding. That, to me, was terrifying. Luckily, when the desire for change is larger than the desire to stay in our comfort zone, big things can happen. And they did for me.
Oh boy it would make my day if somebody just handed me a cheque for a million dollars. Until I think about it this way: would that serve me? Would that enable me to really step into my powerful self, with an innate and infallible confidence in own abilities? Probably not.
It would really please me to get a bunch of free money.
But it wouldn’t serve me. What serves me is to learn that I can do it, to learn this step by step, determined to succeed, facing every fear and limiting belief, until I finally, with the universe at my back, realize I can get outta this damn tower myself, thank you very much.
The best way to trust the universe is to learn to trust yourself, letting go of what prevents you from stepping up, and knowing that the universe is loving you by serving you, even it that doesn’t please you.
Love. It all comes back to love–in the fiercest way possible.